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Tausha May Bush The Black Sheep:
Who am I any different
Than what you see?
I’m a girl who hides in the tent
That isolates who wishes not to be seen
All these feelings I feel
All these doubts
My lips are kept sealed
That still awaits to be revealed
But who can I trust
Who will not blow me away like dust?
There is a moment when you lust
But until you rust
I once came from a family
Who treated me like an animal
It took awhile to be full tamely
To be a full human mammal
If you had been through this before
Then listen to my voice
And therefore
Before I say it twice
I once didn’t have a mouth
That can speak
So I didn’t know what path
I can take
I don’t know who to depend on
For someone to lean too
To look upon
Someone who will guide you through
Every time I think I know
Who’ll be there for me
Yet again I get buried in the snow
Not knowing who’ll be back for me
I am alone
I am trapped
I lost my tone
My voice is unknowned
Was once neglected
Was once abused
Was once raped
Was once ignored
Was once wounded
Was once betrayed
Was once harassed
Was once Isolated
I hid all my tears
Held everything in my treasure
That’s for sure
For all these years
Don’t know when I will unlock
For water to spill
Before the tick tock
How many things I can spell
For what I will
Before my time on the clock
Before the drill
The time will still click
Tick Tock Tick Tock Click
Tick Tock Tick Tock Click
Time is running short
For I am the black
I will stand out
I will not hold things behind my back
As many will stay in the brightest days
While I am in the middle
I am in the black hole
Wanting to know my ways
As I know I’m not black
I am white
My name without a plank
It’s too bright
I don’t know my purpose
If I did my calling would have appeared
But I can’t take a pose
Who will reappeared?
I’m dressed in black wool
Everyone else dressed in white wool
I’m on top of the stool
While everyone take a stroll
I pick up a white chalk
Since I draw
It’s a way to talk
Or walk away
I heard someone told me I was different
From all the rest
Why am I different?
Because your not like us
That’s when I knew
To this day
It wasn’t nothing new
All I know it was a new day from yesterday
I hated to take all the blame
For stuff I didn’t do
Never had the fame
It’s not like that I wanted to
No one really listens what I say
When I get all in high spirits
When I get pushed away
I wanted to impale myself with spears
No one listens when
I was in danger
Who was there for me than?
I wanted to stab myself with a dagger
No one came to my rescue
When I cried for help
For as for this case
Bury me way in the deep
All these feelings I felt
As a young teen
How do I dealt
With all this pain?
I’ve been hurt all my life
I wish if someone who was alive
Who would lift me
To make me live
To that I had promised
My pappy who was dying in bed
I would keep on moving forward
Towards ahead of the road
Now it feels that I am too ashamed
Feel disgusted with myself
Because I am a black sheep
I am within thyself
I wanted to have a dream
High spirited is up
But fallen into a stream
Now I don’t know if there is hope
I want to have hope
But I’m tied into a rope
And being called a dope
Give praises to the Pope
My eyes swell up like a tank
When the water is over the eyelids
Salty tears fall down into the sink
The liquid drips drips drips
Drip drop drip drop
Must keep my hopes up
Drip drop drip drop
Don’t be a dope
I tell myself everyday
Or yesterday
Even the other day
Either way and every way
Seven days of the week
I can be a geek
But I’m also meek
I’m sometimes too weak
Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, Thursdays, Fridays, Saturdays, Sundays
January, February, March, April, May, June, July, August, September, October, November, December
Only twelves months
Only 365 days a year
Thousands of mouths
Who are still with full of concern and consear
I had been betrayed
By my own mother
My own father
Those I thought I would be protected
So much anger and confusion
So much desperate and lost
So much defusion
Everything in my mind is all frost
Once my heart felt so frozened
So much darkness
That I held inside
I felt powerless
My own mother
Making me feel bad
When she says how I am like my father
But I’m nothing to compare to my dad
My own father
Walked out from my mother
Before knowing I was going to be a sister
To my little brother
So many questions
Still unknown
So I sworn
What is my decisions?
I will no longer will hide
I will show my identity
Wind of the tide
I’ll go to the infinity
Infinity and beyonder
What goes on the yonder
Here I will wonder
When I will pounder
I will no longer have thoughts
Of sacrificing my own
Suicide attempts
I have grown so much of what I known
I will overcome my past
Still hoping to have faith in God
Though it will be a task
These are the test I will take for God
I maybe be a black sheep
But I’m not forgotten
Go on to try to rip me up into pieces of sheets
For I will still stand here
Has I and all take the stand
Who would stand out there the most?
I raised my right hand
Hoping for the best
I am the Black Sheep
For I alone will stood out
For there my small voice makes a peep
For I finally make a shout
Here’s my question
When will my moment will be noticed?