My year hasn't started so great so far. After losing my last job before Christmas, I had been applying for job after jobs and no results. I look into my emails everyday for hope but none. Today I hear people complain when they have actual jobs and being paid money and how they talk and talk everyday meanwhile they never seen to notice someone by them who are struggling worse as they are. I open up saying, "Well at least you got jobs and getting paid. What is there to complain about? I sit here looking for a job and I hardly don't complain as much as others. I never had this much struggle in my life and I'm being looked down as a bum a thug. Since my grandmother passed away it makes me feel way worse. There are times I'm giving hints that it was my own fault for not giving her the wishes. I wanted to but it just that my family never really gave me her number or bring her over to see me since I live over an hour away. I would have visit but 1 I don't know how to drive 2 I have this person who controls me and my family. It just made me more guilty than usual mostly what doesn't make it better is that your husbands family are a bunch of jerks wants to put you down. Then I had families who hadn't spoke to me in years wanting to reach out and I had about lost it. I had to speak out to people I knew and I felt overwhelmed and don't deserve to be treated like a broken down toy and how and why contact me after years when they don't care for your problems or sorrows they ask you what your deal is you tell them then they turn around saying "Oh what do you want me to do about it? Feel sorry for you?" No I don't want to feel pity I wanted to talk as a person with secure and reassurance that everything will be alright. Again I'm not naming who or whoever. I'm moving on from here and don't want to put my issues or problems on anyone. Please don't feel the stress to feel bad for me because it will only bring you down and I don't want that. Just a normal positive talk and make everyone feel good. I want to work how to sympathize and empathize more on others and not on myself. Believe me this stress is not worth it and I'm always here when anyone needs to talk to me. All I can do is listen and not say what do you want me to do about it? No, I'm not turning away for those who hurt. I want to be able to make others laugh. So please like I said don't feel like a burden. ^^ Although the world is cruel and there's not much stuff we can do but to stick together.
So as much this as been hard for me I finally register my daughter for school. I knew she needs education and also know she needs all the help she needs for her speech and other things. She is a smart child and aware of things I just hope they help her as much I did for my daughter. She's turning 6 in two weeks and decided this will be new for her and play with children her own age. I'm going back to work and the thing is I would want to work nearby her school so I'm there for her because this fear, I witnessed back in 2009 when I was in High School hearing the gunshots nearby and seeing people running scared, screaming when this man attacked American Association and was afraid he was going to attack our school and I feared for my younger brother. As it turned out the gunman never made it to our school thank God but for those who were victims of massive shootings my heart goes out. I want to be near in case anything happens and I wouldn't care I would do my duty to be there for her. My daughter is growing up so fast and I want to see her succeed and want to protect her from danger.
Maple Mario
Daughter of Luigi and Daisy
Gender: Female
Hair Color: Brown
Eye Color: Blue
Age: 8½ years old
Personality: Generous, Mischievous, Comedic and Witted.
(Luigi’s and Daisy’s oldest daughter and oldest Mario kid.)
Nickname: Piccolo fiore or Little Flower (Luigi calls her.) Baby, (Calls by Daisy.) Sweetie (Calls by Mario.)
Rudy Lou Mario
Son of Luigi and Daisy
Gender: Male
Hair Color: Dark Brown-Reddish
Eye Color: Blue-Gray
Age: 3 ½ years old
Personality: Kind-hearted, Timid, Shy, Aware, and Intelligent.
(Luigi’s and Daisy’s youngest son, also the youngest of the Mario kids.)
Nickname: Little Tyke, Mini Luigi (Calls by Mario.) Little Lou (Called by Bowser.), Baby (Calls by Daisy.) Sweetie
Mango Mario
Daughter of Mario and Peach
Gender: Female
Hair: Ginger Hair
Eye Color: Green
Age: 7 years old
Personality: Too Confident, Nìave, Feisty, and Hot Tempered. (She is nice but can be a little rude.)
(Mario and Peaches' youngest daughter and youngest twin sister to Dario Mario.)
Nickname: Baby girl, Little Princess, Little Brat (Calls by Bowser and other characters.) Sweetie (Calls by Peach.)
Dario Mario
Son of Mario and Peach
Gender: Male
Hair: Light Brown
Eye Color: Light Blue
Age: 7 years old
Personality: Brave, Witted, Resourceful, and Open minded.
(Mario and Peaches oldest son and older twin brother to Mango.)
Nickname: Junior (Calls by Mario.) Sweetie (Peach.)
Where's my Miracle?? I asked for a Miracle and this happens.... There was a flash flodding and had no idea what was wrong til the heat wasn't coming up. I checked this morning been having people checking in the heater. There's an elderly person who had diabetes and it needs to fix it and they won't fix it yet. My 5 year old is here and I'm being blamed for it... Everything my fault this my fault that. I lost my job because of people talk and I can't put up with it I can't control the weather. I didn't meant for things to happen. My Christmas isn't going to be so great and I asked for a Miracle and instead of one I'm being treated like that I don't know who to trust anymore